First of Many

I've deleted my previous blogs because I'm trying with all of my heart, mind & strength to put the past behind me and start new. With my *gulp* 30th birthday looming over me, this seems like the perfect time to do it. This past year has been hard on me. Before last November, I was light-hearted, jovial and let most things just roll off my back. I kept it light with most people. Even though I wasn't happy, I was at least fun to be around.

Now, I don't even have that going for me, and I want it back. I'm going to stop taking life so seriously, or at least try to. I want people to want to be around me again. I want to stop focusing so much on the future, and start to live more in the now again while looking forward.

Most importantly, I want to be happy. The first couple of steps towards that are to do things because I want to instead of because I think they are expected of me, and to surround myself with people who don't bring me down and who can help me keep perspective. Anyone wanna help?