How sad is it that I am actually looking forward to this meeting tonight for the United Way cause it's giving me something to do! I have recently come to the realization that I am a workaholic and don't know how to be on vacation. I just CAN'T!! I've tried, believe me, to relax but I feel like I'm slacking, so when this meeting was planned for the middle of my vacation, I was thrilled! It gave me something to plan and organize! LOL
But it also brought me to the sad realization that I am once again equating my worth and my contribution to society with my job and how busy I am. Not necessarily with what I am achieving in the long- or short-term, but with the busyness that comes with that. It's something that happens all the time with me, usually in cycles, and it usually stops when I either am too tired or too spread thinly to do things properly, or I burn out. Either way, the results are not pretty.
I know in my head that I need to be able to say 'no' to things, to just be, and to not have to do all the time. I know in my head (and it is becoming more and more clear to me as I read this damn book for work) that some really worthwhile things in my life have to go in order to even better things to the best of my ability. The problem I am facing now is that everything that I am involved in right now holds a very large part of my heart, and it is seems impossible for me to determine which one is more "worthwhile" than the others.
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